Some poems from 2005

I’m Crying Inside
This Pain Goes Too Deep
I Just Want This Feeling To Sleep
My Heart Aches From Doubt
There Is No Figuring Out
I Should Just Ask Her
If Only To End My Doubt

Haunting Nights

What is this thing called love
Why does it haunt me
Why does it invade my inner thoughts
Will I ever be able to be in the quite Continue reading

 


My Ramblings

­­So, here I sit my heart in wraps. I’m feeling kind of blue just thinking about my future. I have so many things going for me on my current path. Even so I still have yearnings for my old life. That life was on the fast track for death, which, I do not miss… Continue reading

 


A really serious question.

A friend of mine asked myself and several others the the questions below. I really felt like I should put my answers online to, if for nothing else, declare what I hold to be true.

This is a survey to all of my friends in which i am curious… Continue reading

 


My Thoughts Betray Me

My thoughts betray me this night

Feelings beyond what was known

I feel weak inside

Weakness above my strength

Strength that is required of me

This path is darkened and unclear

No light can I see

Steps are shaky and slow

Slipping is… Continue reading

 


Insane

To have found out things you did not want to know.

Using means that should not have been used.

Now having gained this ill gotten knowledge is driving me insane.

Why did I do this to myself?

Why would I let my curiosity overcome me?

With this what do I… Continue reading

 


Lonely

Lonely,

I’m having those old feelings flair up yet again,

Tearing me apart with empty words,

The pain still sharp, I pray to soon fade,

What to do?

Rely on the Lord is all I can,

I feel like I’m destined to never find her,

The one to… Continue reading

 


No Longer a Boy

I am no longer the little boy I used to be. I have grown up into the man I’ve desired to be. It is now time to put away the thoughts I had when the thoughts I had when I was a child. My actions are different, my mind is transformed. I simply now love… Continue reading

 


Morning thought

Awake I am with the morning glow.

My eyes have yet to close for their nightly rest.

Today should be great if only it fails to pass me by.… Continue reading

 


Troubling Contemplations

When I do what I know is wrong, when I do what I hate, I find myself in a quandary.

I find myself thinking about my past, the things that bring me down.

They make me sick and prolong my suffering.

I hate who I have been allowing myself… Continue reading

 


My Prayer

Lord, how do I let go of her?

How do I release my hold to you?

I’m so consumed by her memory

Left wide to attack

I desire you oh Lord

You, and only You… Continue reading